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  • Listening to: The Stains of Time - Metal Gear Rising OST
Sssssssoooooooo.............
......
Theres this person at work I've been wantin' to talk to for a while, and have failed at every turn to do so. 

Until Moisis mentioned Smash Bros.
...and all four of them happen to play.
Also they're doomed.



The End.

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  • Listening to: The Stains of Time - Metal Gear Rising OST
Sssssssoooooooo.............
......
Theres this person at work I've been wantin' to talk to for a while, and have failed at every turn to do so. 

Until Moisis mentioned Smash Bros.
...and all four of them happen to play.
Also they're doomed.



The End.

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  • Listening to: Nine Wood Hills - World of Final Fantasy OST
Is off to a very fantastic start.
... For me.

Not so much for my parents. I'm just watching them be stupid and.... sighing... alot. I hate being the smartest person in the household by default. I may not be particularly intelligent, but people just keep making me look smarter with the decisions they make...

I was never designated smart person. Why do you people do this? WHY!?

Anyway... so yeah. Long story short, I guess... uhh..... life is okay, even if I don't feel like it is. Its better than it has been, for a long time.... I can't just always let my bitterness win. Logically, everything is vastly better than it was, those times are over, and its just hard to let go, 'cos the problem is only solved for me, but not ALL of what I set out to destroy, is dead. Just alot of it.. but that will have to wait. 

So uh.... yeah, things are still looking up. I plan to keep it that way. 

I have to admit, I'm a little disappointed I couldn't stay friends with Leah, but, thats the way things go. I'm just glad its dealt with, but I do miss reviewing positive things with her. 

Anyway, thats all for now.
  • Listening to: Guilty Gear X2 OST- Existence
Remembering things that happened, harsh things that were said, times friends have hurt me, when I trusted them. I guess today is just going to be one of those days...

I keep looking at league of legends bitterly. Not 'cos anything league did, hah, I never played the game. I wanna, but... can't currently. Can probably fix it when I get better internet tho'.

That isn't the point. That became a scar, thanks to her. I can tell, 'cos I feel my anger flare up when some one doesn't respond, and a status or whatever, says they're playing League. I can feel my hate rise... she really hurt me that day, and thats the only reason I know, 'cos my anger, in spite of my reflex, just immediately rises, and I feel worse. I remember all the times she hurt me, and the people and times I was hurt, because of her, especially unjustly so. 

I'm glad we don't talk anymore. Honestly, I'm confused as to how I should feel. I want to forgive, but those things aren't healing, so I don't know what to do. I don't know how to make them heal, its been years, and they still hurt. I thought it'd just go away, with distance and time... I guess not. Something must still be tearing them back open, perhaps?... I don't know. 

I guess its probably 'cos I feel like its still happening. The bottom line of the problem; people don't listen to me, but are more than happy to assume I'm at fault, without seeing my side first. It generally doesn't matter, except when I trust the person... and... yeah, I feel like thats still happening. Like I'm being cut, on behalf of some one else, making me look worse than I am. And again, I can't do shit, because no one hears me.



Well, now I really wont be heard, since I convinced Dekw not to watch my journals anymore. So, chances are he'll 100% forget that my page is even there, if he doesn't get alerts from it.

But... I'm not sure having a voice mattered in the first place..
I probably mentioned how my emotions actually make me stronger in battle, or focus more or whatever else.

Blah blah, anyway, thats the most context I have the stamina to give right now.

So, on to the thing. I'm trying to find a silver lining to the on and off barrages of anxiety and suspicion and fear. As I've mentioned, pain makes me fight harder, so I guess on the one hand, I'll just inexplicably be stronger all the time, and no one will really know how/why except for those who do, and it wont be noticeable to anyone who doesn't know me well enough, so I don't have to build up the courage to explain why I had to hit some one 46 times after they were already beaten... 
Its just that.... the more agony I suppress, the more it comes out in fighting... I'm not bothered by that as much, like I said, I'm trying to find this as a positive side. It means my firepower increases, and my resistance to external pain greatly increases..

Whats bothering me, is of course, anxious fear, and then past triggers making me feel that that fear is unacceptable. Honestly, I don't even know if the one in particular is a 'past trigger' or if its still an active problem. See, I feel like I can't talk to my best friend anymore, about when I'm feeling down, 'cos of how he deals with people, I'm honestly afraid that if I'm just... too pathetic or something, he'll just say "Fuck that" and cut off all contact with me. Do I actually know if he'd do that? Not a even a shred of a clue. Hes done things I didn't expect him to, and been annoyed at me before when I honestly thought nothing whatsoever was wrong, and I can't shake that feeling of unease at times.... times when I feel vulnerable, I just feel like I'm not allowed to show him that vulnerability. Its a catch 22, when it'd be best to admit I feel hurt, is the time i'm least capable of doing it... and 'cos of how hes reacted with indifference before, over something hurting me, I'm actively afraid of saying anything, for fear of tripling the pain I feel, so, I take the less scary option, and say nothing. 'Cos my emotions don't honestly know, will he just decide one day, "fuck it, I'm gone." and go? Will it be my fault? From what I can remember, if I strain really hard against the feeling of fear, this entire statement is fucking lunacy... I should not at all be afraid of that, and SHOULD just be able to say wtf ever. Its been that way for a while, I think. that I should- that it IS fine, for me to just say whatever i feel without problem.

I guess its.... some of the old 'burn marks' so to speak, hurt.

Still, acknowledging that I BELIEVE that I 'know' that its a false fear, makes it hurt a bit less. But... not to the point I feel I can approach anyone over it. So uh, you see why I'm here, currently....

I never feel like I know much of anything, with 100% certainty. Especially when it comes to people... I will take them at their word, up until the moment they arent behaving exactly in line with what they said. when that happens, I just... always brace for impact. 'Cos it just happens too often.
I'm sure its that thing called 'emotions'. People don't always just behave logically, calmly, rationally, or even fucking politely. I'm probably the only person I know that actually approaches every situation politely first, and waits for the other side to provoke me to not be polite...
(unless I just don't know how to be polite, then I'm just completely honest instead.)

I hate it sometimes, honestly... err.. no puns intended. Being honest, I mean. That too, makes me feel vulnerable, 'cos I just.... I just spit out whatever seems to be the truth as far as I know, if its relevant. but damn near everyone I know, has lied to me on multiple occasions, and... really, it just makes me question the viability of being honest. I feel like I'm playing this 'life game' at a handicap, when I'm just always honest.. and everyone else gets an edge on me, 'cos they're willing to lie. I mean, under specific conditions, I'll lie too, obviously, but if it isn't for some countermeasure against some one who provoked it, then I just won't bother!

And... it makes me feel exposed all the time, thats what bugs me.
Why WOULDN'T I tell the truth?... if I don't want some one to know something, I'll just not respond to them, or... I'll tell them I don't feel like sharing. Just.. ugh...

Anyway, I just... I have lots of suspicions about things around me right now.. and I don't have the strength to approach much of it right now, it feels like my insides are caving in, and its draining alot of my stamina.. so I'm.... I'm just going to try to calm down, and rest right now... I don't know when the best time to try anything at all, will be, though.

Erghh.. I don't want to be hurt again... I'm so sick of that...
Saving alot of explaining and time it'd take, in short, I have a habit of winning at games, alot, and people get bored/upset eventually.

Okay so, that out of the way, I'm troubled, currently. My new friends, Nick and Joe, like alot of the games I play. The problem is... I'm... incredibly strong, at all of them. Even if I wasn't, I become strong incredibly fast, because the harder something tries to kill me, the stronger it ends up making me. 
I don't know how NOT to do that, except to just not play at all, or not fight back or whatever.

in short, I don't know what to do. I don't want to upset Nick, 'cos he seems the most bugged by it, I'm doing the best I can to sort of hold back, but I mean.... I feel like I'm being rude if I hold back TOO much.. I just don't know what to do.

So, I'm a little upset at the moment. I guess you could say I'm mentally reliving some of the skirmishes in my past, 'cos of it..
I'm trying not to be upset, but its making me feel vulnerable. I could talk to them about it, but.... I mean who the fuck does that? "Hey guys, I'm afraid I'll just kick your ass so much you wont want to play with me anymore. Can we do something else?"

How do I phrase any of that? How do I just... like... step out of the situation? Just NOT hang out with anyone, ever?...

I don't know how to have friends anymore... especially not ones that share my hobbies, or any level of my enthusiasm for them.

I don't know what to do..
They're just not strong enough to be fighting me. Both in, and out of game. I'm a freak, and they're just....... human.

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Personal Quote: I dont need luck, just alot of aspirin...
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Queshy Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2015   Writer
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!
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Baratus Featured By Owner Apr 7, 2015
<.<; thank you
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Thanks for the fave :)
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*nod*
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Laeneris Featured By Owner Dec 24, 2013  Student Writer
I hope you're doing alright, and sorry I'm so slow with my replies. Merry Christmas! :iconasnowmanplz:
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